2 down, 2 to go! (:

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i'm having a very blue monday morning. i'm lacking sleep and feeling blah. wet and dreary. perfect for sleeping in but not so when one needs to be studying. it's one of those days that i ask God to pick me up, hold me close to His heart and stay there for awhile and feel His warmth, and not bother about all that warrants my attention. *sniffles* go away blues, go away disturbing discouraging discordant thoughts, go away! you're not a friend. it's one of those days that i feel like i lack warmth and love and hugs and joy and smiles and everything else. i miss being around people, my homies. even the nice and old christmas songs that starbucks is playing isn't helping to lift my mood. boo.

When the day is done
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear

You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need

When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need
You're all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need
You're all I need

I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You

You are all i need/ Bethany Dillon

examophobia

"cast all your anxieties upon Him for He cares for you."

- 1 pet 5:7

this much i have, to give.

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom, even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly, the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do, there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child

he said: "Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will"
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all to feed them all

I often think about that boy when I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face, I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you

I trust in you
So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you willI surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

"five loaves & 2 fishes"/ corrinne may

release

*breathes*

i feel like i can breathe again

guitar practical test is over.

6 essays over.

1 mid term down.

1 presentation down.

just 1 final essay to go

and then the exams

oh woooow. this feeling... it's hard to describe.

it's literally a load off my chest. relief. so liberating.

*exhales*

the final essay is due tmr.

i'll be liberated (albeit temporarily) after 6pm.

and then one evening to rest (:

i'm so looking forward to the quiet solitude of prepping for exams

and all the awesome things after that

my girls, i want to spend time with my girls (:

i haven't done enough for them - to do more

the hols means spending time with precious everyone and many yous (:

i can breathe now.

thank You Father, for seeing me through this crazy season and i know You will continue to see me through the last essay and the exams. so Dad, thanks a million in advance (: what would i do without You, really. Your peace guarded my heart and mind this season, Your love and grace abounded when i least deserved it; when i needed it most. it's so much that i can never repay. not forgetting all the people that You've sent to encourage, help and push me in the right direction too. precious friends and family.

so thankful (:

i can smell christmas!

was just reading amy's blog

and it dawned upon me that

christmas is coming (:

my favourite time of the year

just thinking about it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside

breathe.

rejoice (:

the crazy season will pass.

dear yi-lin

"But now, Lord, what do I look for?
My hope is in You."

- Ps 39:7

1 am things.

this is so random... but i've changed my gmail's layout and re-organized it! melikey :D

sigh.

i have no time for everything and everybody.

31 days to go

because He first loved us

"trust in the Lord with all our hearts

and lean not on our own understanding;

in all our ways acknowledge Him,

and He will make our paths straight"

- prov 3:5-6 (:

good things come to those who wait (:

thankful (:

wait patiently upon the Lord

be still my soul, be still.

it's amazing to know a God so tender, so loving

You know the ways to my heart

You make me delight with glee

You still my heart's longing

teach me to be wise

teach me to be thankful

in every season and every circumstance

to find joy in even the little things

i will trust

You are

the portion & strength of my heart

satisfied, i am.

in You.

and i thank God for you everyday (:

when the folks are away

dinner was lovely (:

afternoons and essays

hope.joy.love overflowing

i feel like i'm in a good place in life (: all the little things add up to make life the way it is and i'm thankful for every single bit. it isn't smooth sailing and neither is it superbly fantastic. i suppose it's when we start appreciating the small and seemingly insignificant things that we see the beauty and the little joys in all of them. it's hard to even put it down in words - it's just a warm and comfortable feeling that washes over my heart, knowing that i'll be okay, knowing that i'm so blessed to have people who love me and people whom i love. the Lord gives and may take away, but i will still sing in every circumstance. i'm giving thanks for all these precious moments and how God, You've made them all so special (:

in You, i find my joy and delight (:

swept away

"for You have been my hope, O Sovereign Lord, my confidence since my youth. From birth i have relied on You; You have brought me forth from my mother's womb, i will ever praise You... but as for me, i will always have hope; i will praise you more and more."

- Psalm 71:5-6,14

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You have my heart
And I am Yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God You remain
The Holy One
My unfailing love
Unfailing love

You are my rock
The one I hold on to
You are my song
And I sing for You

I will praise You
Praise you God of earth and sky
How beautiful is your unfailing love
Unfailing love

- Unfailing Love/ Chris Tomlin

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Jesus, You are so good

there's nothing to fear 'coz i'm here in Your presence (:

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Lord, Your love overwhelms; You love sweeps over me, for perfect love casts out all fear. i don't understand why and how You can love me so much in spite of my shortcomings... Your love, is unfailing, so sweet. You, oh Lord, give me hope. You alone are my heart's portion and strength forever. i love You Lord (:

for memories' sake

the band at grafus' wedding (:

jes was totally phenomenal in this one!!!

bear with the mistakes, please. haha.

and many thanks to those who've helped made it possible! (: like edwin and cs who came to help set up!

and thanks ian for capturing it on video! (:

surrender

it's this time of the semester again; it's when stress gets to everyone. and it's getting to me too. all the pressure from school's making me see things in a lesser perspective, clouding up mind. and all i feel is this dead weight that i'm lugging around, this inertia that i can't seem to get rid of.

I'm givin you my heart, and all that is within
I lay it all down for the sake of you, my King
I'm givin you me dreams, I'm layin down my rights
I'm givin up my heart for the promise of new life

(Chorus)
And I surrender all to you, all to you
And I surrender all to you, Lord, all to you

- "surrender"/vineyard

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it's somehow reassuring

to always come back to this place

surrendering over and over again

coz i know God is bigger than all my fears

for my yoke in Him is light

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Your grace is sufficient for me

Your strength is made perfect
When I am weak
And all that I cling to
I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me

- "Your grace is sufficient"/shane & shane

sigh.

it's one of 'em off days that i feel silly for having done what i've done. i've blown it.

wheehoo love <3

8 years of friendship and counting <3

look out on the sidewalk

quiet mornings spent

by the window's desk.

so flutters a day curtain;

the morning's soft light comes streaming in,

blanketing the table with a white hue.

j.mayer's playing his acoustic

closed my eyes

took a breath

felt this heart strangely stilled.

heard the soft whirl of the ceiling fan,

some muffled hum of movement

and a vacuum of hurriedness.

lap up the quiet;

it floods my soul

be still.

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so many things to do before going to sweden.

module mapping

6 more essays

readings on top of that

and then exams

gah.

*facepalms*