don't you just miss the sun and the 33 deg after all the rain?

a random gorgeous photo i came across

soulmate

love, where is your fire?

sometimes, the songs say it better.

Love, where is your fire? 

I've been sitting here smoking away making signals with sticks and odd ends and bits, 

but there's no sign of a flame

Imposters have been passing, offering good-feeling glow

but I'm holding out for what you are about - an inferno that burns to the bone

some urge me to be temperate, lukewarm will never do

'Cos I, I wana (know I'll) blaze with you

So i'm holding my heart out to you

Holding my heart out

So I stand, handing out torches

speaking words that are lamps to their feet

Til the time when you come and I'm whole and we are one and the fire in me is complete

Some tell me to be moderate but lukewarm will never do

nights

in this stillness of night

i sat in solitude

heard and saw

i felt tonight

this stillness of night

the cold caress of wind

only its orange 

the lamp illumines 

this stillness of night

quietness arrests the senses

the soft glow of the moon

its mild way comforts 

this stillness of night

overlooked too oft 

overlooked too oft

do you see?

boo hoo

rough start

am i making a mountain out of a molehill?

i hate to whine/complain but i've just had a rather upsetting week. i'm this close to ... sitting on someone and choking him or her to death. the week started out great, really. but things just HAD to go downhill. 

it's so hard to be positive, to have a heart of worship; to be good and gracious and nice and all that when people all around are really just constantly irritating the socks off me. i've honestly never been this frustrated before. it's just incredibly tough. in the midst of typing this paragraph, another sms came... oh what joyous carrier of bad news it is. and i thought i had that particular issue settled/covered. why is it so hard?! 

but as i reflect upon what i'm stuck in. i realized, okay more like i knew that i had the freedom, to react to it negatively and allow my anger and frustration to get the better of myself, in turn affecting others around me.. like a domino effect, or i could choose to exercise self-control and to make the best of things. 

the latter is such a challenge. i mean i rarely get upset and all, but this is really affecting me a lot. but i suppose this is the real test of self-control, graciousness and holding my tongue. ahh.. i shall not sin in my anger. i must control! however hard it may be...

just 5 more days...