grateful

oh God, You're so good, so faithful! (:

i've gotten my results! did better than expected and i'm really REALLY happy; like totally over the moon man. haha. but everything's by God grace. how He saw me through my exams was incredible, to bless me with my yay! results is even more incredulous.

it's true.

do your best and God will do the rest. whee! (:

thankYou Jesus!

free

i'm free and i'm coming back to the heart of worship.

here i am oh God
i bring this sacrifice
my open heart
i offer up my life
i look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
restores me again

you

should i toughen my resolve?

that painted face

opening up to people is always a liability. because you're vulnerable. you reveal your innermost thoughts and fears. people see you for who you are. you dont know what they're thinking. most worrisome of all, you dont know if they're judgemental.

but i give thanks that most people i know aren't like that. i give thanks that my close friends aren't like that.

i onlywant to overcome this selfishness and this fear. it's hard. but it can be made easier. i hope.

SHANIA TAN

SHANIA TAN WEILIN!!!


i'm so sorry i forgot to call you on your birthday. my bad. i feel really terrible about it! argh.
and! no one called me to confirm details on monday! i was sitting by the phone.. waiting...

closer

in desperation i cry out to You
only then i'm close
bring me back to the heart of worship
to lay my life; worries, concerns, fears, disappointments, flaws, everything at Your feet

i want the heart of worship
i'm sorry Lord for the thing i've made it
don't want it to be a show
dont want to sing for the sake of singing
i want to sing for You

heart of worship, i wana come back to it

my fears and regrets
i lift them all up
help me be strong in You
let me be excited for You
let me be inspired by You
let me be an overcomer through You

hold me close
all my pains and regrets

i'm sorry Lord

distress

today's been a really bad day. okay, more like a bad night. my mouth's getting me into a lot of trouble. one's words, be it written or spoken is deadlier than any poison arrow. God's way of reminding me to hold my tongue i guess. often painful lessons to learn. why am i always learning things the hard way? cranium's too thick i suppose.

i need to sleep. i should stop speaking.

Lord of Lords

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
And no other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart

I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me

And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need

I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that’s of worth to me

And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You’re all that I need

In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion

zap

waking at 7 or earlier for the past 5 days have taken a toll on my body especially when i get less than 6 hours every night. but today was good. i slept for more than 4 hours in the afternoon! haha. my post lacks depth. what is happening?!!!?!! think i'm too idle. i have absolutely nothing to talk about. okay i do, but i'm getting lazy. so this post is essentially becoming a post about absolutely nothin at all. how interesting. IRONY(!!)

this would be such a literay/philo qn to ask but: a blog post essentially about nothing is STILL about something. comment on that statement.

*LIGHTBULB MOMENT!*

i'm getting BAPTIZED! *beams* finally.
i'v been wanting to get baptised for awhile but my exams clashed with the baptism class... so i thought i would have to postpone it to next year but pastor's opening a class for the youths. how exciting! yay! i'm gg to get baptized this christmas. i'm looking forward to baptism class. cool stuff (: and i've been thinking of adding to my name though... how does Maegan sound?

Yee Minyi, Maegan.

Maegan means: capable and strong; child of light; pearl.

i like what the Maegan means/represents. but perhaps a name should also bear something; a trait of sorts that i can grow into. becoming strong and capable, not by my own strength, but through the Lord. a child of light - having the courage to be different and to shine for Christ. hmm... maegan.. i like the ring to it. it's a really unique name. most people spell it as megan, but maegan is waaay cooler. hehehe.

okays i'm off to make a positive difference in my sister's life by getting her to go to bed early. till then!