a series of unfortunate events

these couple of days have been nothing but a whole string of unfortunate incidents! i can't stress enough how frustrated and upset i am. and what makes it worse is that i blog more about unhappy stuff than happy stuff. the truth is that the happy stuff outweigh the bad stuff. but writing has a cathartic on me. and when the happy and awesome stuff takes place, i'll become too happy to sit down and write. boohoohoo. i just wanted to say that the days have been UGH lately. this post isn't so much a complaint, but i just needed an outlet.

there have been so many miscommunications lately - with friends, at higher levels of authority, and with another group of people. it's awful. so so so awful. horrid. the things that people say. the words. intentionally or unintentionally.

and it breaks my heart so much to know what it could all potentially lead to. sometimes i really feel like giving up. why am i always the friend to apologize first when it wasn't even my fault in the first place? why is it always me who has to suck it all up and clean up the mess that i didn't have a big hand in creating? it's absolutely painful. yet it's necessary. too much ego kills. is it worth it all to lay down that pride? and all these crummy things and days culminating with an injured foot, the soreness blitzes through my foot every time i take a step. so much frustrations that i cried while skyping with luanie.

pruning, again.

forgiveness. i need to forgive. healing will come then.

thanks luanie.. (:

The Bible says, "A man's wisdom gives him patience..." (Proverbs 19:11 NIV). The only way we can see all stuff as small stuff is to view it from God's perspective. When I am in tune with God, I remember he has everything under control even though I don't! So I don't have to sweat it: "The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control" (Galatians 5:22-23 NIV).

Pray this prayer: "Lord, help me to be filled with your love, joy, and peace, so that when I'm squeezed and pressured it is your love, joy, and peace that spill out of me."

- Purpose Driven Connection 26 May 2009

"do not let any unwholesome talk come our of your mouths. but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." - eph 4:29

blah.

throw the blankets over and hide under the covers. 

what next? 

where am i supposed to go from here? 

the woes of growing up. boohoo. not getting it, is it the lack of affirmation on His part? 

all the miscommunication

when will they stop?

this series of unfortunate events.

#500

just realized i have loads of posts saved as drafts. haha. will get down to sorting them out soon... and this is how i've spent my 5ooth post. ha. yay.

the next time you drive behind a lorry..

was fuming earlier today. on the way lunch with the folks, i drove behind a lorry that was carrying a load of gasoline cylinders. the sticker on the back of such trucks usually reads: "DANGER HIGHLY FLAMMABLE". but today, the "D" was missing.

it read: "ANGER HIGHLY FLAMMABLE".

ah. 

the Big Guy's watching over and out for me.

surprises and lessons.

ponder

*plops onto the bed*

hellooooo, i've back from a super duper long week! breakthru camp and then youth leaders' retreat and then mothers' day celebration. will update again!

i feel like a mindless sheep.