a big dollop of sunshine
maybe a smaller spoonful of rain
and a multitude of rolling green hills
glorious days
today i caught myself being unhappy, again. but spying on my blog and reading a little of what i've written some time ago down the dusty, worn out and trodden path of melancholy, reminded me that i shouldn't be so. i have much to be thankful for. yeah, i bet some of you reading are thinking: not again... haha. hrms, a synonym then: grateful ;)
i talked to a friend today while at Youthphoria and i must say i haven't exactly been the nicest person to him and i suppose i took him for granted too many times. and learning from others about what he's done for me and many others is just -sigh- heartwarming and at the same time, puts me to shame for not being a better friend.
a friend so selfless.
i do not deserve.
taking a look around, i see i'm lavished upon. i see that i'm given more than i deserve. i see that i'm unworthy. re-reading some of the bday cards and letters dear friends wrote to me made me tear. because i'm undeserving of what's written. i am but much. i am only little. i am still falling, making mistakes. i am still learning. i am still growing.
but i am loved.
so undeserving of grace.
but because of grace that was given to me, i'm a better person.
because of grace, i can love.
because of grace, everyone deserves better.
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