i hate to whine/complain but i've just had a rather upsetting week. i'm this close to ... sitting on someone and choking him or her to death. the week started out great, really. but things just HAD to go downhill.
it's so hard to be positive, to have a heart of worship; to be good and gracious and nice and all that when people all around are really just constantly irritating the socks off me. i've honestly never been this frustrated before. it's just incredibly tough. in the midst of typing this paragraph, another sms came... oh what joyous carrier of bad news it is. and i thought i had that particular issue settled/covered. why is it so hard?!
but as i reflect upon what i'm stuck in. i realized, okay more like i knew that i had the freedom, to react to it negatively and allow my anger and frustration to get the better of myself, in turn affecting others around me.. like a domino effect, or i could choose to exercise self-control and to make the best of things.
the latter is such a challenge. i mean i rarely get upset and all, but this is really affecting me a lot. but i suppose this is the real test of self-control, graciousness and holding my tongue. ahh.. i shall not sin in my anger. i must control! however hard it may be...
just 5 more days...
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