yearning

these days, i find myself yearning for a real connection; for something more. something intangible in physical measurement but immeasurable in being soul-full. somehow, amidst the good things that have taken place, i catch myself hungering for more to fill my spirit. more than ever, i want to know His character and His heart. i'm certain He heard those prayers coz a dear friend bought me a book entitled "Cultivating the Heart of the Worship Leader, to Know You More" by Andy Park. i'm excited to read it and i'm expectant of a renewing of my spirit, a renewing of my heart and mind.

think i've somehow lost touch with some dear ones and i confess that i kinda miss them... sigh. suddenly i feel like my friends are poofing away! booo... it's heartbreaking when you give your all to building a friendship only to realize that your friend isn't putting in as much effort. more often than not, i find myself in that rut. i think i give my heart away too easily, but i can't help it. oh well. Jesus gave His heart so willingly and unconditionally, but we take it for granted in all possible ways.. that being said, i suppose i can't expect so much.

His love so lavish, it breaks my heart.