the steam needs to escape somewhere

i'm so frustrated at having to come up with a research topic. i just can't seem to find the "perfect" topic to work on simply because i don't want to choose an something that is overdone. i want my work to stand out. it's true that you can choose a film that's a hot pick amongst other students and still excel in it as long as your work is original. but nothing, just NOTHING is coming out of the brain at all. i'm this close to throwing in the towel. but of course everybody knows that won't happen coz that would mean flunking a module. but you get my point. i am utterly, utterly frustrated. underscore, underscore underscore (!!!)

this semester is so much tougher as compared to the previous sem. So much more is expected of us this semster. 2000 plus words essays that require us to come draw up our own parameters and millions of compulsory readings to do. mommieeeeeeee! sigh. sometimes i wonder if this is where i'm truly meant to be. always saw myself of a lower calibre as compared to my schoolmates. these people are SO brilliant. period. and i know i'm not brilliant. the only way to make up for that is to be diligent on my part. doing my readings consistently and conscientiously.. but who am i kidding? i can't finish all my readings and i haven't even had time to revise. i'm going apecrapbananas right now.

there is just not enough time. there never is enough time for anyone at all. we all want Time. but really.. is Time the master of us or are we the masters of Time? i'd like to believe in the latter. we are the Masters of time. if not now, we WILL be the masters of Time, in time to come. ironically. do you get what i'm saying, no? okay. go to bed. no more reading of my blog for you. 

notice that when i'm spewing, not much of what i say makes sense except maybe it's a wee bit entertaining to read. ha. ARGH. 

i shall post a redemptive entry for this post. soon. ha.

but i know.. i know that God has placed me here for a reason, i know this is where i should be. but it's just so tough sometimes, you know? i know my God will see me through 2 twothousand words assignments, 1 major presentation and another 700 words vic lit. essay, and that there'll be enough time for me to finish my revision and get those so-awesome-hit-the-roof-and make-a-hole-in-it-and-fly-OVER-the-moon kind of grades. i know i know. oh God, help my unbelief and make me believe! 

i'll do my best & God will do the rest. 

tried and tested. 

it works (:

not as frustrated for the steam has found the vent.