for better days

well well well

it's the first day into revisions and already, i feel sian.
i've never felt this unprepared for exams before. i'm scared.
i keep thinking i won't do well.
what a way to start.
it's another 10 more days to my first paper. and in these 10 days, i have to cram for 4 subjects. and i have to go back to sch on certain days. bleh.
even the A levels had a longer study break....

and it's not that i've been procrastinating, but i've just got so many assignments to do.
and i'm not alone. everyone else who's in uni are struggling with this too.
there's just too little time!
okay, i rephrase - maybe too little time devoted to the books coz of everything else that we gotta do. that includes the assignments.

and it takes so much discipline to sit down, revise and come up with relevant notes.
but through this, i know God's teaching me, moulding me, helping me to firm up my resolve. training my mental capacity. hard as it may be to not give in to desires like watching tv and just doing anything but study, i must resist. and be disciplined.

Oh God, i thank You so much for the privilege to be able to study, to pursue an education in uni. help me to cherish these opportunities and not let them slip out of my hands, for You know that i'm ill-disciplined in that area. God, pls also grant us all wisdom and understanding even as we study, and that You'll guide our thoughts such that we are able to stay focused and not be distracted. Lord i also pray that you will also grant us speed to be able to finish revising on time. please calm our hearts and allay our fears, that we'll continue to look to You for strength and comfort. and Father, help us lay hold of Your promises that You have plans to prosper and not to harm us. for all our inadequacies are made adequate in You. help me have BIG faith. thank You God. in Jesus' name, amen.

rah.



i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.